The very cool eatingasia has a post on Americana, which captures so much of what I love about the US – not just the big, ritzy cities, but also the forgotten towns and wacky highway stops in-between (I so want to visit New Mexico).
Jonathan Lethem’s The Fortress of Solitude, which is about a white kid growing up in a predominantly black Brooklyn in the 70s, delves beyond that picture-postcard perfection, though – I’m nowhere near done with it, but it brought back recent memories of Kathy’s and my quest for good food in the suburbs of Chicago. On our way to Hot Doug’s from the nearest El-stop, we had walked under a bridge where the homeless barely stirred from their blankets between dark pillars as we passed by at 11am. The tunnel stank unmistakably of pee, which left me gasping a little, but which Kathy, having lost her sense of smell somehow, was unable to detect. The area between every two pillars defined the living space of one individual – old hotpots and pans bundled together in boxes sitting at the foot of stained bedlinen. When we passed by on our way back (past noon), only these objects bore witness to our silent guilt, post-binge.
Then there was the fact that the students attending the high school near our motel were carrying see-through backpacks, which Kathy informed me was a “bad sign”. The sidewalks were splattered with thrown eggs, and some kid asked if we belonged to an “Asian gang” (!). In another neighbourhood – pleasant and verdant – we saw a sign.
I seem to have a knack for putting myself in unsafe situations, whether I land in the US or Morocco, or stay home in Singapore. Fortunately, during no part of my recent trip to the US/Canada did I feel truly “unsafe” – but I did realise anew how a short Asian girl wearing relatively clean and expensive running shoes could be viewed. And these stereotypes, no matter how complex and layered and removable they are, prevent me from truly feeling at home.

