Sick Saturday, May 30 2009 

I’m sick, as in end-of-the-term sick (I hadn’t known there was such a phenomenon till I found out at least two other teachers were sick, including my mom). After a long parent-teacher meeting on Thursday night (which lasted till 10), during which I chugged down three full glasses of water while conversing with parent after parent, I woke up with a splitting headache (before the alarm clock went off, ugh!) on Friday. We teachers stood in the parade square for over an hour while prize after prize was given out and announcements made. For most of the day, I moved frequently between the heavily air-conditioned staff-room and the humid detention area to see and sit with students.

My throat started seizing up and I started feeling giddy at about 1pm, but I persevered, trying to plug the holes that kept opening up, before finally succumbing to the lure of a cab-ride home at 3.30pm.

Would it be strange to say that it’s somewhat pleasant to be mildly ill – with my head so heavy I can’t stress out about things even if I wanted to; with my mind only being able to focus on Travel&Living and children’s books; with my body finally being able to sleep and sleep and sleep, without starting up automatically at 5.40am or because there are things left undone?

Long Weekends Saturday, May 9 2009 

The beginning of a long weekend is pure joy, especially when there is a thunderstorm at 5am and you wake up and realise that, yes! you do not have to wake up 40 mins later in order to prepare yourself for a day of hurtling through corridors.

Today is such a lovely day. I have marked only 8 summaries so far, and am planning to take a nap with Ursula LeGuin’s Voices soon. Then, it’s a phonecall, and off to meet Yvonne for dinner at a British pub, followed by a Swedish movie.

Could I actually be getting my life back… at least for this weekend? It’s not really the activities that make the difference – it’s the vast emotional space I suddenly find myself in the possession of.

Sundays Sunday, May 3 2009 

Sundays are hot, listless days. The head aches from naps interrupted by thoughts of incomplete tasks and impending failures. Life seems to have flashed by me again, somehow. A series of numbers remains: 14 scripts left (check); new trigger temperature of 37.6 degrees (check); 6.5 hours of sleep tonight (I hope); 11.5KM to run (if I get off my butt).

Now, if only I could quantify inadequacy and tackle it accordingly…